its nice to know what true love feels like, and its greattttt :) ..as lame as that sounds. i dated someone for 3 years before i broke up with them just so i could continue to talk to aaron very night for hours without feeling guilty about it. i didnt know what it would turn into, but i knew that i had more fun talking to aaron than anyone else. He knows how to make me smile :) and i feel like i was faking it for so long being happy with patrick and changing who i really was just to fit his mold that i forgot what it was like to truly enjoy talking to someone and be yourself. i think i knew there was something there before aaron did.. lol who knows? anyways, its amazing how you can date someone for years and think that is was love really is, but the funny thing is i never once could imagine living with him or marrying him, or picture us beyond our teenage years still being together.. but finally i know what it is like to really love someone, now that me and aaron are together i cant imagine Not being with him. Not that i want to plan my life out with him, but when i think about the future i dont ever picture him not being there. i didnt know thats how it was going to be, considering i thought i already knew what real love was, but i guess it was more like just being stuck with the same person, being so used to them that you dont realize the right person IS out there somewhere. Aaron makes me feel so special all the time, and i just want him to know that i think he is more special to me than i could ever express, via tumblr anyway..

this post prob. doesnt make much sense, as i am just typing it as i feel it and think it, but its good to get things like this off your chest.. and i think i am the only one who will read it anyway :)